Hello. I have been researching the mind body connection for a long time. I started off trying to figure out what was wrong with me and got way more information then I thought I would. I found out there is thousands and thousands of people suffering from one of many forms of a mental illness. Most are not being reported because some people are embarrassed so they do not seek help and continue to suffer getting worse by the day. It is not a serious condition if properly taken care of but what the public does not know is there is alot of people who have committed suicide thinking they cannot handle the horrible darkness they are feeling.
Something very important to know once you know you suffer from depression and many other conditions is that you have to interview many therapist. Just because they have a certificate on the wall does not mean they are good. Don't give up. It could take ten doctors before you find the right one. You will know when you completely click with the right doctor. Then you are on the road to recovery. It does not go away but with medication and therapy it can be managed so you can live almost a normal life.
I am in the process of alot of research into all subjects to do with abuse especially violence against women. Men are also abused. I had to watch my brother being physically abused by my alcoholic father which being a sick little girl scared the hell out of me. I am trying to report some forms to an office reporting myself as a victim and also a witness to a crime. Also in all my research I found an article that said it is a criminal offense to abuse a disabled child which was me. I plan on addressing this article in supreme court soon. I am trying to find a civil pro bono lawyer who can help me with the paperwork to sue my father for $50,000 in supreme court BC Canada. This is called a financial hardship award or ten years of lost potential income caused directly from over 40 yrs of mental abuse by my alcoholic father. I cannot work anymore and am heavily medicated and in therapy for life. I did not want this life. It feels like a prison sentence and I am not giving up until we get into court. I am very intelligent and can represent myself in court. I make too much money for legal aide and not enough to afford a good civil lawyer so I am getting a pro bono lawyer to help me with the paperwork and I will do the rest. I have called the police to start a case and they were no help. They told me if I was physically abused I could report it but because it is only mental abuse they do nothing. This made me very mad.
Physical abuse can heal but mental illness does not. Depression and other conditions don't just affect you. They affect your whole family and everyone close to you.My parents turned into two people I did not know existed when they were around their first grandchild who they loved so much. When I told my father he was not allowed to hold my son without supervision six months later he had a breakdown and was put in the hospital to detox. He quit drinking. My son is 26 now and does not understand anything about depression or any mental illness. He also does not understand why me and my brother hate our parents so much. My sons father was also an abusive alcoholic who I left three times. The last time I left he was 17 and wanted to stay with his dad. I understood and moved just up the road and we had dinner once a week. I firmly believe you should not involve your children in your domestic problems. My ex crossed the line and had my son call me to tell me dad was taking me to court. I felt like a knife went through my heart. He made my son and everyone else hate me. My son has been told lies about me and nobody will let me defend myself. I have not seen my son in six years. We were close for 20 yrs. I am now on suicide watch. I have been through health since my unwanted birth but this is the worse thing done to me. I was so mad that I wrote a letter to my ex best friends saying I wanted to kill him for taking my son away from me. Well they sent the note to my ex who took it to the police. I was arrested and put in jail twice. Once over night and all day before I was released. Then I had to go to court several times. I taught myself how to represent myself. As soon as I told crown I suffer from mental and physical disabilities. The whole mood in the room changed. They asked me to have my therapist to fax them a letter and come back so I did. When I went back I was there for two mins. It was dropped with one year probation.
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