Sometimes a good cry helps

I probably said this before but I firmly keeping yourself busy most the time and then hug your cat or dog.

I can't forget one of the last Oprah shows she had a few couples on stage who had all lost one of their children. Kidnapped or murdered. The pain in their faces are so powerful. I felt the same way they did but I know my child is healthy and happy. My whole life revolved around him for 20 yrs then in a minute it is all gone.

I am writing this book hoping I might be able to encourage others like me. I am also busy working on setting up a meeting with a lawyer soon to start a court case against my father. I am asking for alot of money which in the eyes of the law is called a financial hardship award or ten years of potential income I lost due to his daily abuse towards me. I never felt wanted or loved by anyone.

The more I write which is only what I remember. I am told alot happened I was not aware of. I've been trying to hide this pain from everyone. I feel like I did when I had five miscarriages.

Bringing your kids into your domestic problems is really crossing the line. My ex did that and also had me put in jail twice. Once overnight for uttering threats. I represented myself in court with help from my therapist I only got a year probation. All because he wanted me back the fouth time and when I rejected him he